I know nothing What I know is what I hear What I hear is what I heard What I heard is what I understand What I understood is what I can tell What I could tell is what I'll share What I shared is what could be received What was received will last forever The history, the strugles and the achievements of a WOMAN Do you smell that? the presence of a woman, so interesting Do you see that? the beauty of a woman, draws your attention from a distance Do you hear that? The sweet but strong voice, that was heard Do you understand that? The history, the struggles and the achievements of a WOMAN!

YamkyFunkyChaz: Has your mind travelled to the past, your 1st thou...

YamkyFunkyChaz: Has your mind travelled to the past, your 1st thou...

Has your mind travelled to the past, your 1st thought is sad memories right? No I'm talking about those happy times where you'd laugh so hard that tears come out, laugh so hard wanting to stop because your stomach hurts. Yeah those were the good times weren't they..... Back then when you thought you knew everything, had a family, great school and that perfect bestfriend for you because you guys had so many differences but yet still having a lot in common. When you'd be helped with everything barely not realising when you need help and when hands would be hanging reaching out to assist you. Walking down memory lane when you would share a bath with your bestfriend and talk about the cutest guy, those time's you'd get shy because she would hook you up. Good times hey, that time you and your family would fill out the whole restuarent because you were so many and made a noise as if you booked the restuarent the whole night. When you'd have movie days and when you go to pick a movie everyone fights and want their favourite, what about those times when there would be a fun function at school and your family there to participate. Gone are those good times :)....... When you and your brother hated vegies so much that you would staff them under your bed and come spring cleaning day you'd be pointing fingures at each other then you'd be grounded, haha. Good days are not gone just that they have passed and usually when something passes it means something new, exciting and better is coming. The days you'd go and take pictures in the park with fam and friends then do something silly like push someone in the pool or hide someones shoe and be amused watching them search for it & getting worried. Those warm huggs, friendly smiles and loving souls. Where have those days gone to :) went to memory lanes I guess

Blank, I tried to find reason, to find understanding. When I found it, everything was all over the place, it confussed me, going too fast, tried to catch it but always came back to knock me down. You know when your head goes blank, when you try to find those words but they are just spinning around your head making it hard to pick. It comes with fear, you see it's easy when you don't know your fears because you can go around the world searching for a reason. I know my fears, unlike you, but like you I still go around the world to search for a reason. You go there to find it, I go there to find a better one than the one I have. Nothing gets to me so fast like my thoughts do. I have visions , I love them because their not so real, reality is not even a chapter I'd like to skip but a book I'd never wanna touch. Why touch it when it's already part of me. My thoughts are spinning again, faster than before, I try to catch up, end up not making sense, but not making sense doesn't mean you not understood, just that they haven't been paying too much attention. I'm still on the fear point, but what happens when fear confronts you. (pause) i can feel your heart beating fast, goes back to the words playing in your head, that are never stopping, still trying to find reason. The mind is not like a cellphone where you can just switch it off whenever it doesn't operate, you cannot resert it, it may be controlled by an operator, you don't fully know it, you just shut it out whenever you don't get it, but that's not how your mind works. You are the operater, you can slow it down, you don't have to face fear, know it, whenever it comes say the feeling is mutual. You are still confussed, thoughts are running even faster trying to get it, hey it got to you 1st, I told you that you are the operator, slow it down. Still blank, nothing will ever be in it if you put it there. Slow down, you the operator, know fear, your mind is full so fill in the blank, empty it. Stopped spinning, everything is calm, can't shut it , can't resert it but live it, it can't touch you you already part of it, life is what was given to you, living it is how you give back not death. Everything is in it's place now.

**QUESTIONS & ANSWERS** We all seem to ask questions but we never seem to find answers. We always ask questions when we angry, sad depressed and mostly when we hurt. Theres always a question why? It only has three letters, so simple to say but most of the time so hard to answer. Whenwe ask questions we mostly confussed or curious and sometimes don't understand. I think when you ask you need a definition in order to understand the situation and most people ask themselves but their never answered and then they go and find someone to make them understand. Sometimes we ask and be answered but still we confussed because you don't understand the situation. Sometimes you've got to put yourself aside and put yourself in the shoes of that someone you seeking answers from, then ask yourself why, who knows you might find more understanding answers and you might not get one reason but more than one beacause you put your mind into it. BECAUSE IN LIFE IT'S NOT THE QUESTIONS THAT ARE DIFFICULT, IT'S THE ANSWERS

Patience.......what a human being fails to have. Being patient is really hard, we always want things now and in a hurry, a qoute once said "we often say God never come's on time, yet we forget that we are always in a hurry". We all have dreams and sometimes we go the wrong way to getting them , and that's when I often get confussed between taking advantage and taking opportunity, it is like the invisible line, that becomes visible after you have crossed t. Patience is a must have, but we often fail to even want it, patience is that seed that is lonely and needs to be planted, to be taken care of and that plant that needs to grow, to not rush, it differs on a soul and one day it will blosson. I always listen when someone talks and the thought just came to my mind when someone said " God answers everyone's prayers, it is like in a restuarant, people ordered fish and chips and their order came 1st but they ordered after you. Be patient my dear you ordered your steak and you wanted it well done, so it is being prepared for you, let them enjoy their fish and chips, your steak is on it's way." this message really got to me because we all cry to God but we don't cry about the same things and therefore we won't all get answer's immediately......patience my dear friends, it is one of life's lesson that we need to learn, that we need to accopmplish and that we need to teach.

Okay today I just want to talk music, I've got many artist whom I like but today just want to talk about one. "The Queen of Pop" yes I'm talking about Janet Jackson. Her music is something else, I like the fact that out of all the music I listen to, hers is unique. The beats, the sound of her voice and just the type of music. My favourite songs are : LUV "now I'm like a deer caught in headlines ugh, he hit me with his love, love, love ,love,love, he hit me with his (love) and now I'm in love,love,love,love, got me caught in a wreck, I'm a mess" *singing* yeah pretty much sounds like a teen lol. Her songs are lovely till the end and can't stop but play repeat and make some noise. I wouldn't say I've been inlove or inlike (if there's something as such) but this song brings me almost in tears -Greatest X ,just from the start, it just keeps me grounded and wanna go with it to it's pace , from the 1st verse to the last and in between the chorus "I love you, and you love me and I just couldn't see tomorrow, baby and I cared for you and I didn't see us through now I know in my heart you will always be the greatest X ever" ,if you are a JanFan you must be smilling alone right now. You see her music for me is a transformation, from making you explore with you mind and to dancing with the rhythm - Rock with you ,this song just gets you on your feet and it brings that oomph. Talking about transformation to the rhythm on your feet - So Excited ,is another song that makes you sweat and jump around with your BFF's, my favourite part of this song is "do you like it when I do it I go head to toe and whenever you pursue it you'll never hear the word no so forget about them other girls baby cause you're rolling with a woman baby I'ma keep your body thumbling baby It's the least I can do cause you get me so excited". Oh man talk about killer tracks, they always put me in a good mood. I just imagine her on the stage and doing what she knows best, inspiration through music is what keeps people like me happy. Janet is an entertainer, a woman, inspiration, a role model and many other things. She has the body, has the success and yet she is still humble and loving to her fans. I'll talk about acting & her dancing some other time, because today is just the joyous of her music that I wanted to focuss on. She truelly is a legend, "queen of pop" "blackglama legend" Ms Janet Jackson, personally I like to call her simply J. ;)

A Bad Habit I have adapted a bad habit That everytime pain visits I shut the door immediately That everytime pain is about to get out and form into tears I hold back quickly And when it comes back to my house of heart it comes back ten times more Am I being selfish of me? Or has pain become my self comfort? Poem by: yamkela sigwili

Today I want to touch on the fame issue, you know that dream that haunts you, wanting to be known for that certain talent or gift. Some celebrities tell us that we won't all fit on television's, we won't all fit on stage's and we won't all fit on radio's etc, it is rather disturbing to me although it is 100% true. For me it sends two messages: 1- it is as thou they say pick something else because you know not all will reach it, I feel like they are kind of putting you off on the gear, 2- they are being real but also testing you on how determined are you to archieving what you longing for, it is as thou they are saying go for it but it won't be easy. When they say we all won't fit on tv , I'd like to argue a little with it because 1st of all not all of us have the same talent and tv's have many soapie's, drama's, comedian's, dance, music and talent etc and they all don't play at the same time, they have different slots and days. Yes we won't all fit there, but some last a season and something new comes, isn't it possible for you to be part of it? Talk about a stage, another argument, not all acts happen at the same time, each character gets the right to be heard , then they step out and another one comes, so again isn't is possible that you might be that person? They tell you that dream big, make it happen, yet the other day they almost said the opposite. Every little one of us inside want that recognition at some point, just to see how it is but at the same time knowing you doing it for the love and the appreciation of a talent and not just for fame. I want to first know me and understand me before I could be out there, so that whatever title they might put on me I would know if it's true or not, and not be hurt if it's hurtful and be greatful if it's true. So I have a belief that you are where you are because someone out there gave you a break, you might not know it but someone did say "I am taking my chances because I believe in this person". Yamky Funky Chaz on the move to challenging your way of thinking.

Sense of belonging oh such an awsome feeling in the world. This may seem so plain but it could change one's world and the way of thinking, waking up everyday knowing you doing it all for a purpose, being acknowledged for the good you do really is a booster on someone's life. I always say that "the is a difference between a smiley child and a happy one" , a smiley child just smiles about it for the moment of being, a happy child is seen through tears, they cry about it for that moment but they know it won't last for long and that comes with a sense of belonging, somewhere. I tell you many people might be against you but that one person who is with you can really make a huge difference. Let's try and becareful of how we use words because the scars created by words can't be erased, they play repeat everytime you alone and everytime you close your eyes the reaction of the person saying those words replays. Sense of belonging can be bad, making a person feel like trash and unimportant as thou they belong in hell. Sense of belonging is supposed to make one smile when there's a lot of trouble coming on your way, after all the way of defeating an enemy is by smilling and nothing destroys them more when they see that smile is true. Don't smile when you see them, smile everywhere you go because only you are living your life unlike them on guard on what you doing. Sense of belonging is where you take off that high heel and feel so grounded and comfortable. Sense of belonging is when you discover yourself. YFC it's real.

"Beauty is in the smize of the beholder" -Tyra Banks. This woman went all out to define beauty, she was fearless in challenging the media but was still fierce at it. Tyra was not afraid to rock her real her, show her face without make-up and show us the retouched photos of herself on the Tyra Banks Show. She expands on defining beauty inside and out. She was a huge inspiration into being real with yourself. She always said "be your own CEO" to many that would mean some sort of business but to me it meant to owning who I am. Successeful people like her make me have the hunger to archieve my goals. I'm a big dreamer "guilty as charged" but a good goaler too. I remember when her show was still on, I would rush to get home before the show starts and it would hurt missing it. Her shows were a learning experience and very educative, I would pass the message to my friends. She still inspires me in every single way "dahling" and now I have the platform to be. Explaining what she/her work does to me would take many blogs but this was a short way to give you an idea about my type of a role model. My role models are the different flavours that make a taste in ma food (meaning they are a lot but each has a special way to make a value in my life). I live in the environment where celebrities are known for the designer shoe and entertainment, but the environment within me sees the drive behind it and the motivation that rides with it. Fierce and love -tyra would say.

"The pain is necessary. Sometimes pain is the teacher we require, a hidden gift of healing and hope " -Janet Jackson quotes. So we complain so much about pain, but what would life be without it? Too perfect it even scares me. There are two sides in every scenario case, the positive and the negative side. Life needs a bit drama to make it interesting, we need pain in order to appreciate love. Pain is the tester of how it is like when you are down, not to see who matters to you but see who you matter to. Pain is surely an unwanted gift, but pain is also lonely and therefore seeks a friend to hang out with, it doesn't last long but it often feels too long, it leaves you with a reason and purpose to life, when you feel lighter & happier. Let us face it pain is a need and happiness is a want, but what is more of a blessing than a gift, is it pain or is it laughter?

Introduction Hi YamkyFunkyChaz here, today is my 1st day blogging, I'm a wirtter of my own and I've lately decided to share what I write, it is mostly poems. I tackle many issues and through this blog I want to bring a sense of understanding to the issues you face in everday life. Fun is what I love to have and talk about, I'm looking forward to chatting with you , if you want to know more about me you can go check out my profile ;). Happy days just began